i've moved! // 26.03.05

but i am continuing to be shambolic (as always) over at my new site - here

so change your bookmarks! (if you can be bothered) getting serious for a minute // 10.06.04

im currently studying advertising, after dumping two seperate design degrees (one of which i had a full scholarship for)... having second thoughts about this one too, though i wonder if i just have an inability to finish things once ive started them... im thinking of chucking everything in and becoming a chef, but that would mean working as an apprentice with shitty pay for the next 3 years, and id probably have to work 2 jobs to pay my rent. .. at the moment i work as a digital retoucher - ive done this for two years and its getting boring. maybe if they paid me more id be happier, but thats not really the point.

usually im generally happy, but lately ive found that im the queen of self loathing and self doubt. most things come for me pretty easily, so im worried that one day someone is just going to look at my work and finally discover i have no talent, and they made a mistake. i dont exactly know whats brought this on, i feel like ive lapsed back to my highschool self esteem issues and that worries me...

my personal life has never been better (great relationship, great friends), but career wise i feel pretty stuck. though only in my own mind, i suppose. im only 20 so its not a dire emergency or anything at this point, though i do feel like a bit of a failure sometimes.

witness the fitness // 27.04.04

went to see a mate of mine's band on saturday night at the Landsdowne Hotel.. hip hop/drum n bass kinda act, called DeBasa and i must say they rocked the house! i suggest all of you check out the website, and any of you Sydney kids should check them out next time theyre in town. (also, any of you aussies, look out for the extremely charismatic frontman, Merlin - on the new series of BigBrother...)
in other news, i'm moving this weekend, closer to the city .. im pretty excited, but packing is truly a bitch.

ps. ben - i didnt mean to pike on your birthday celebrations - i was at the semi-permanent design conference all day and by the end of it i was just so buggered i went home and went straight to bed.,.. i trust you had fun in my abscence anyway !
and ken, you should definatley check out Lovage. its hott.

two films you must see this year // 13.04.04

Irreversible and Elephant
very different, but equally disturbing films that made me remember why cinema really is an artform. i dont want to tell you much about either of them, but believe me when i tell you these movies genuinely affected me. it was wonderful.
any aussie would be familiar with the fuss the censorship board made over Irreversible, and can i just say (for the hundredth time) - fuck them. i dont see why they would possibly want to ban this film. probably because its too 'gritty', too real - these are people you know, people you see on the street, possibly even you. but thats why its great. mulling over these two films, i actually found Elephant to be more disturbing, so i'd like to hear your opinion if youve seen both or either of these films

strangers in the night ... what were the chances? // 13.04.04

so i wonder if anyone is actually reading this, cos im sure any regular readership i had has probably given up on me long ago.. but regardless - i'm back. thanks to the work of a lovely and previously unknown to me lad named timmy. (he assures me he has a blog coming soon, so stay tuned).
now, timmy has turned me on to the fact that somehow my site reviewed in a zine created for the noise online festival .. the review can be seen here .. go to the 'blog' section in the menu, and im there under 'Miss Retro'. stoked.
i certainly didnt submit my blog to that.

so, the moral of this story is - im going to start doing my blog again. so put the word out on the street. bec is BACK. i'll fix up my image hosting malarkey and fill you in on my crazily busy life in the next issue...

Totally Stroked // 23.01.04

well, looks like my image hosting site has died sometime over the holidays... i'll have to do something about that.

in the meantime, im still recovering from seeing two FRICKEN AWESOME shows mid-week and getting completely loaded at one and completely drunk at the other (and having to go to work in between.)

Saw Aphex Twin and Luke Viebert on Tuesday night. I was completely blown-away, i danced my ass off, and still managed to get up and go to work the next day. ... and then the next night .. The Strokes + Kings of Leon. oh my god. Now, I'll admit to being in love with Julian Casablancas before, but now ... woah. That guy is sex.
I even bought Strokes logo underpants, i'm that much of a schoolgirl.

well, I know this is short, but i'm the tiredest (is that even a word?) ive been in a long time. and i need to sleep.

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